Today. Slightly traumatic. Ruttage.

I'm struggling a bit today. I really don't want to be negative, but ugh man, I need an outlet. Bear with me.

I think my boyfriend will be leaving for the mines.

I feel a whole bunch of things. Guilt: last week I had almost hoped he'd go. (I was mad, ok). Sorrow: for what I had hoped my life, our lives would look like next year. More guilt: because there are times when I doubt that future. Anger. Isn't this my life too? And then sometimes, a sense of calm. Everything happens for a reason. We just don't always know why.

Ah, youth.

Guh.

Secondly, I'll be seeing Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows at midnight tonight. I'm sad and excited and happy and emotional.

So. very. emotional.

Also. I'm at work. And I'm behind on my articles. If I like writing so much then WHY do I procrastinate... SO MUCH? What's wrong with me?!!!!!!!!

It's crazy how our decisions change our lives, throwing our life trajectory in a completely new direction, catapulting us to places we never expected. Yet we have to make these decisions with no idea if it's the 'right' one.

Maybe there is no 'right choice'. There are only different outcomes, and each is different, each is both right and wrong.

The infuriating beauty of life?

Out of Joy.

Life - why do we need to be reminded to enjoy it?

I just read a blog I follow. They posted about a friend with some pretty heavy health problems. I feel really strongly about sending prayers and positive thoughts to people that need it so, if anyone is reading this, send a little good thought out there.

It's times like these that I remember to pay it forward, to make a difference.

Life can be short, and that we all owe it to ourselves to make it a good one.

F*#k, huh.

My boyfriend got offered that mine job.

huh.



... fate?

The Transition From Absolute Uni Bum To Working Gal

Ok.

So, I may have failed a lil. I may or may not have posted every day. Hahahahaha.

I totally sold out, taking the first job I was offered out of uni. I regret nothing! I no longer sweep popcorn off the floor (I'll hazard a guess that a lot of things are more fun than that). The only problem is that I have less time. The plus side is that I now spend all day, every day frying my retinas on the ol' PCmajiggy. 

Optometrists, you cads. Must be rakin' it in.

Anywho, I'm wondering if everyone else is as terrified at the prospect of graduation and life after graduation as I was.

I wasn't always really terrified though; I was just worried. Worried that noone would hire me, worried that I couldn't do the job if I finally got one.

I plan to elaborate on this more in the future, but for now I'd like to say it's ok :) if you do your best, make some smart decisions and put yourself out there, things somehow always fall into place!

Good luck to anyone out there reading this in need of an opportunity - a door will open.

Sometimes you just have to give it a run-up.